Easier Said Than Done!

Copyright ©2007 Jimmy Bairagee

There’s silence in solitude,

There’s peace in silence,

But too much quiet! – Might as well be dead!

They say Love is worth the wait,

But too much wait is a waste,

And it’s hard to decipher – When And How

To Break the Silence,

REGRET!

I should have said more to keep you here,
I should have done more to have you near.
I have waged a war against my fear,
In the end I lost someone I held so dear.

Barbed Wires, My Safety Net !

Copyright ©2007 Jimmy Bairagee

I am a broken soul
Somewhat like burned out coal
You were my only rope
Who tied me to a living hope

Maze!

This is an awesome video! Song is in Korean, but I urge you to look at the SUBTITLES & follow the storyline; you'll will see why I chose this video for this particular poem!

Feel My Eyes Crystallize

With The Presence Of You In My View

NOMAD!

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IVE GOT A TROUBLED MIND / IN THIS TROUBLED TIME

I AM WITHOUT BLESSINGS / FROM THE GREAT DIVINE

I SPEAK MY WORDS / IN DIFFERENT CHORDS

YET ALL I HAVE TO SAY / NEVER SEEMS TO RHYME

WHAT I SEEK / ISN'T WHAT I NEED

FOR THAT EMBRACE / I WOULD GLADLY BLEED

I HAVE COME TO REACT / TO A SOLE, SIMPLE FACT

I AM CURSED INDEED / IN BEING A BAD SEED

WHEN AND WHY, I TRY, I TRY

EACH N EVERY TIME I'M ALWAYS ONE-INCH SHY

LOVE LIFE MORE THAN ANYTHING

YET I CANT FIND MY PLACE

I WONDER EVER, WILL I TASTE

THE TOUCH OF SWEET EMBRACE

I SET MY MIND IN MOTION / MY SOUL-LOTION

YIELDS A TWISTED FLAVORED / CONCOCTION

IN A MAZE OF WORDS / I'M TIGHTLY TWISTED SHUT

IN A FAZE OF FEAR / I'M SICK DOWN TO MY GUT

WHEN AND WHY, I TRY, I TRY

EACH N EVERY TIME I'M ALWAYS ONE INCH SHY

I NEVER GIVE UP HOPING, I WILL SOON BE REAPING

THE FRUITS OF MY LABOR, CUZ IT'S MY TURN TO SAVOR

THIS PAIN CANT LAST FOREVER

                                                          

Jimmy Bairagee 06-10-2006

I Can't Let You Fall!

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I'm not sad initially,
But it makes me sad to see you suffer.
I just want to share your pain,
Just to make things better.

When Words Disappear!

When words disappear all I have are my thoughts,

it's torture not being able to express, leaves me tied in knots.

I feel alien to myself feeling locked up inside,

As if I'm looking in from a perspective with which I collide.

Time comes to a halt leaving me stuck in between,

Facing a reality so unreal, I feel far from serene.

I'm stripped of humanity, driven away to another realm,

As if I'm left steering a vessel missing its helm.

When it seems I have lost all control, the storm strikes harder,

The whirl winds toss me around, the whirlpool draws me deeper.

Oh the stormy seas, ruthless, relentless, savage without mercy,

In my dying breath all I can hope is for a divine curtsy.

Calm the cruel winds, calm this vengeful hurricane,

Calm my soul, calm this mind infiltrated with disdain.

I have no helm why bother trying in vain this ship to steer,

Before I make my leap overboard I wish that my cry you would hear.

Thrashing and crashing, mashing and gnashing, struggling to relate,

Humanity has abandoned me or I it, I can't seem to navigate.

I have lost my voice; words are hard for me to iterate,

I hope if only, these silent screams reach out to heaven's gate.

Hoping and wishing my soul for you to liberate,

Time is my enemy right now oh God I plead that you don't hesitate!

Disappointment!

Ma you know I love you, I'm so sorry I'm a mess,

With a son like me I can't say that you've been blessed!

I've tried and failed so many times I understand how you feel,

Yet you love me anyway in spite of the whole ordeal!

There are times you want me home but I can't make myself go,

Feeling that you're disappointed in me even though it's not so!

Ma I love you, I wish I could be a better son to you,

I've lost faith in myself I wish I knew what else to do!

Every time you talk to me I can tell you hold back tears,

Wish I could give you tears of joy but I know it's tears of fear!

Ma, I know there are times I don't know what to say,

To make you feel any better so all I can do is pray!

Pray that someday you will find that son that you deserve,

I hope by then I'm still deserving, so please don't lose your nerve!

I love you Ma and I know you love me too, even though it's hard for you,

I've tried and failed so many times, Ma, I don't know what to do!

Truth Of It All

Copyright ©2007 Jimmy Bairagee

Truth Of It All Is...

 ...I'm alive it's a miracle,

All that I taste in life seems so cynical,

I can't keep track I guess I’m not clerical,

In most of the occurrences in life, I guess I’m asymmetrical!

In my point of view, I am as cold stew,

Or even a De-fizzed, month old, Mountain Dew,

All has gone flat line in my cursed avenue,

I don't bother resuscitating myself, I guess I am through!

Nothing seems worth the haste,

Why hurry to the end of the line just to taste,

Disappointment blended in a disgusting paste,

So I savor my pain not letting it go to waste!

If misery be my only company,

Might as well enjoy its bitter symphony,

Each note struck with an unbearable agony,

I create a masterpiece with my sorrows in monotony!

What makes me able to endure it all,

Is the thought, "Who will be there if in case you fall?"

Each step grows heavier as my cry turns visceral,

Pressing me down to all four's, I begin to crawl!

Why can't I just let you go and heed to my inner call?

"Just let go, and crumble to pieces, like a porcelain doll."

Yet I can't let you close, because this pain is mine, not yours to suffer,

I know I push myself away just to create a buffer,

I don't want you near, right here, anywhere, close to me please,

Afraid, you might contract my unstable, emotional, disease!

Only comfort I find, is the pain I feel when I realize my love for you,

Wishing is dreaming I know, but sorry, you and I are a dream, unable to come true!