Disappointment!

Ma you know I love you, I'm so sorry I'm a mess,

With a son like me I can't say that you've been blessed!

I've tried and failed so many times I understand how you feel,

Yet you love me anyway in spite of the whole ordeal!

There are times you want me home but I can't make myself go,

Feeling that you're disappointed in me even though it's not so!

Ma I love you, I wish I could be a better son to you,

I've lost faith in myself I wish I knew what else to do!

Every time you talk to me I can tell you hold back tears,

Wish I could give you tears of joy but I know it's tears of fear!

Ma, I know there are times I don't know what to say,

To make you feel any better so all I can do is pray!

Pray that someday you will find that son that you deserve,

I hope by then I'm still deserving, so please don't lose your nerve!

I love you Ma and I know you love me too, even though it's hard for you,

I've tried and failed so many times, Ma, I don't know what to do!