When Words Disappear!

When words disappear all I have are my thoughts,

it's torture not being able to express, leaves me tied in knots.

I feel alien to myself feeling locked up inside,

As if I'm looking in from a perspective with which I collide.

Time comes to a halt leaving me stuck in between,

Facing a reality so unreal, I feel far from serene.

I'm stripped of humanity, driven away to another realm,

As if I'm left steering a vessel missing its helm.

When it seems I have lost all control, the storm strikes harder,

The whirl winds toss me around, the whirlpool draws me deeper.

Oh the stormy seas, ruthless, relentless, savage without mercy,

In my dying breath all I can hope is for a divine curtsy.

Calm the cruel winds, calm this vengeful hurricane,

Calm my soul, calm this mind infiltrated with disdain.

I have no helm why bother trying in vain this ship to steer,

Before I make my leap overboard I wish that my cry you would hear.

Thrashing and crashing, mashing and gnashing, struggling to relate,

Humanity has abandoned me or I it, I can't seem to navigate.

I have lost my voice; words are hard for me to iterate,

I hope if only, these silent screams reach out to heaven's gate.

Hoping and wishing my soul for you to liberate,

Time is my enemy right now oh God I plead that you don't hesitate!