She Shook The Pillars Of The Mantle Of My Soul (Modified)

She Shook The Pillars Of The Mantle Of My Soul

When She Whispered, “I Love You, Into My Ears!”

She Smoothed The Angry Waters That Drown Me Whole,

When She Uttered The Words, “I Love You, Oh My Dear!”

Never Was An Easy Thing To Be So Different,

Outside A Façade Covering An Inside Torrent,

Looking Cool, Yet All the While Burning,

Constantly Seeking To Stop The Wheels Of Reality From Turning.

Never Feeling Home Even When With Them Closest To Me,

Trying To Create My Niche, Concocting An Alternate Reality!

Then, Peace Came Briefly In Shape Of A Bottle,

Little Did I Know, I Was Just Stepping On Hells Throttle!

Down, Down, Falling, Stumbling, I Hit The Ground,

Shattered To Pieces, The Wind Scattering Me All Around!

But It Took Deepest Of Dark For Me To See The Light,

Upon Hearing My Cries God Gave Me The Strength To Fight!

Blessings Come In The Weirdest Of Ways,

Erasing The Pain From All Of My Wasted Days!

Heaven Poured Down Overfilling My Cup,

Heaven Gave Me HER And Said It’s Time To Wake Up!

She Shook The Pillars Of The Mantle Of My Soul

When She Whispered, “I Love You, Into My Ears!”

She Smoothed The Angry Waters That Drown Me Whole,

When She Uttered The Words, “I Love You, Oh My Dear!”

Now I Sail Seas With The Waters Crystal Clear,

I Dream, Dreams Of Solace, No More Nasty Night Mares!

I Dream Of HER, Whom God Has Given To Me,  

A Dream Come True, One I Believed I Would Never Get To See!

Cliché It Seems, The Word Dream, I Mean,

Be That As It May, It’s Like Nothing I’ve Ever Seen.

Sky So Blue, The Sun So Red, And Fields So Green,

Been Eons Since I Felt So Alive From Within!

Words Still Elude Me But In A Good Kind Of Way,

Finding Comfort In Silence Just Gazing At Her Face.

My Mind Ceases To Wonder From All It’s Disarray,

No Where I’d Rather Be Right Now, Than This Blessed Place!

She Takes My Hand, She Doesn't Wanna Let Go,

Not The Slightest Bit Of Shy When It Comes To Show;

So Genuine Is She, It’s So Unreal,

Little By Little Again, She’s Enabling Me To Feel!

Now She Shakes The Pillars Of The Mantle Of My Soul

Whenever She Whispers, “I Love You, Into My Ears!”

She Smooths The Angry Waters That Drown Me Whole,

Every Time She Utters The Words, “I Love You, Oh My Dear!”

She Covers Her Denial With A Smile!

She used to be that girl with twinkles in her eyes,
What she had in her possession, she never realized.
A Jewell, a Gem, valued at priceless,
I'd rate her a "twenty" when she's not at her best.
Even at her worst; somehow, she always managed to smile,
I could feel the pain in her but she was always in denial.
Trying to embrace ignorance, because ignorance is bliss,
I wish I had the power to kill her pain with a kiss.

When I see her smile,
I see a river of denial.
I never see her cry,
She holds her pain deep inside.

They say a picture is worth a million words,
She's so picture perfect, sharper than a million swords.
Every glance from her cuts me deep,
She's so beautiful, it makes me want to weep.
When I come to my senses and I come to realize,
She's a pretty picture with pain locked up inside.
It shatters my bones to see her try and fake it,
If I had my choice, her pain, I would gladly take it.

When I see her smile,
I see a river of denial.
I never see her cry,
She holds her pain deep inside.

I still see a twinkle but something's not the same,
Tears turning crystal, I feel, her pain is to blame.
Agony, misery, yet she smiles,
A smile so fake, smiling in denial.
Forced to look away, that sight, unable to bear,
A dagger in my heart, my soul does she tear.
So I shed a tear for her because she seems unable,
To face reality, so I let her sleep in her little fable.

When I see her smile,
I see a river of denial.
I never see her cry,
She holds her pain deep inside.

Don't fake it,
Embrace it,
When you fall I will be there.
Just let it go,
All you need to know is,
How much I do care.
One last time, one last rhyme,
One last sentiment, let me be your paradigm.

Without Fail, I Will Prevail! {Dedicated}

And so, life may pain me,
Like  a grinder or sandpaper
Life may stain me.
Cutting deep in my soul
Life may sever,
Yet I will never
Let go of the tether,
Till once more completely I am whole!
So send whatever plague my way,
Torment me any moment of any day,
In the end undetoured I remain,
And this is what I'v got to say!


Let whatever belowes roll,
All that attempts to swallow me whole,
But I will emerge from the belly of the whale,
Weathering life's stromes and all its hellish hail!
Without fail, I will strive untill the end,
And surely, I will Prevail!


With each strike
My will only grows stronger,
From the deapths of darkness
I see glimpses of light over yonder!
Bleeding through every pore
I will tread through barbed wires,
And whatever thorny bush,
Turning pain to my fuel never ceasing to push!
Soon becoming numb, 
As the pains continue to multiply,
Increasing the total sum,
Merely elabirating my desires to overcome!


So let all the belows roll
Everything that tries to swallow me whole
Surely I will emerge out form the belly of the whale
I will weather any of life's storms and all it's hellish hails!
And without fail, I will strive until the very end!
And without the slightest of doubt, surely I shall prevail!


To You, My Dear Friend Earnest!
May The Music In Your Soul Forever Continue to Flow !


Thanx For Always Lifting Me Up When I'm Down!
{Jimmy Bairagee}
www.nosignofsolace.blogspot.com

Broken, Shattered, Torn, Forsaken, I!

Forsaken, 

Drained Completely, Stripped, 

My Life Has Been Taken!

Over & Over, 

Betrayed, Cheated, 

My Own Enemy I, No Mistaking!

I'm Broken,

Rantings Of An Insane Fella Who Thinks He Is An Awesome Warrior! "And No, It Isn't Me!"!"!

Lay Beneath The Stars,

Body Bruised With Battle Scars,

Half Alive, Not Yet Dead,

For The Night, This Grassy Knoll, My Bed!

Come Dawn, Beams Of The Sun Is Shed,

Upon Opening My Dreary Eyes,

All I See, Green Painted In Red,

No Sorrows, Calm Overcomes Me Instead!

A Cynical Grin Covers My Face,

Battle Won, I Think By Heavens Grace,

So Lay Here I, The Blood Soaked Victor,

In Midst Of Them That Breathe No More!

My Body Numb Yet Feeling So Alive,

To Fight Again My Only Drive,

Savoring This Pain As I Struggle To Breathe,

Only Thoughts, 

Again To Draw My Sword From It's Sheathe!

A Feable Attempt To Decipher Tendencies Of Human Norm!

To Open The Heart,

Many, Dare Not, In Fear One's World Be Torn Apart!

Barricading Avenues,

Selfish, We Love To Receive, But Hate Repaying Our Dues!

Half Empty, Half Full? Depends On Perspective Of A Scholar Versus A Tool!

Place We Ourselves, Where?

Unravels The Integrity & Levels Of Respect We Desire One's Self To Adhere!

Hazy Or Clear?

All Depends On The Angle From Which We Choose To Stare!

Sturdy Or Be It Volatile,

The Sort Of Tact Utilized Will Elaborate How Agile One May Be In Tenderly Handling The Fragile,

Or With Utmost Disregard, Diminishing Something That Could Quite Possibly Be, Worth All The While!

Just When, Right Then!

Just When, Right Then,

Thought It Was Over,

She Spread Her Wings

And Lent Me Her Cover!

What I Needed, Reciprocated,

By A Love That Saves,

She Caressed And Kept Me 

Out From The Graves!

Divine Intervention, 

Couldn't Ask For Anything More,

Just Needed Someone To Adore!

All The While I've Been Alone, 

Frozen Solid, Harder Than Stone, 

Then She Came To Me & Melted Down!

Like Liquid, So Fluid, 

She Gave Me Hope Right When

I Thought I wouldn't Make It!

But Look At Me Now, In Bliss I Sit!

My Dreams Are Worth Dreaming Now, 

All Is Passed , She Cured My Nightmares Somehow!

I Don't Know, I Don't Care, I Cant Complain, 

All I Know, She Alone Delivered Me From My Pain!

All About You! You've Got Me Twisted!

Could You Tell Me Please,

Where You Got Such Pretty Hair?

Love How It Flows In The Summer Breeze,

And The Way It Smells In Open Air!

From An Empty Canvas To A Deleted Picture!

As She Walked On By, 

Couldn't Gather The Nerves To Tell Her Hi,

No Matter How Hard I Tried, 

Guess I Was Just Way Too Shy!

Maybe Another Time, 

Perhaps Some Other Place,

Would Grant Me A Little Bit More Grace!

Why Waste Any Time, 

Just To Agonize, 

Over A Girl Who Leaves Me At A Loss For Words
And My Lips Paralyzed!

From A Clear Crisp Image, 

She Morphs Into A Silhouette! 

Slowly Fading Away, 

Leaving Me Only To Taste My Regret! 

Felt So Much Better,

The Moments Before I Saw Her,

Was A Serene Empty Canvas,

She Turns It A Deleted Picture!

So, Maybe Another Time, 

Perhaps Elsewhere,

Time Will Grant Just A Bit More Grace!

To Speak My Mind, 

To Utter What I Feel,

So I Don't End Up Watching, Alone, An Empty Movie Reel!

Addicted To Your Poison!

My Sight Grows Dimmer, 

With Every Step I Take,

My Lifeline Gets Thinner, 

Everyday I Wake!

You're A Vampire,

No Words Worthy...MOTHER!

I'm scared of that day when I will lose you, 

So I push you far away from me,

I make you oh so weary to a point, 

Where you go ahead and just let me be!

It's not that I do it on purpose, 

In driving you away,

May be somewhere in my subconscious I feel, 

It will prepare me for that day!

The day, when I'll have to lay you down, 

In that beautiful wooden box,

The box, which will be your bed, 

Until God stops the clocks!

When Time turns ever Eternal, 

And Sorrow no more Prevail,

When Tears cease to rain with terror, 

From Pain's storms of hail!

Till He wakes you up and brings you back, 

To see a brighter day,

When shackles can no more confine, 

Any soul that looked His way!

In my heart, I find peace in knowing, 

You'll surely be there in His care,

But for now, to say goodbye will be, 

The most hardest thing to say!

So I push myself further and further, 

Till neither you or I feel that close,

Hoping, in the end it won't hurt so bad, 

When on your box I lay that rose!

I can't express these thoughts to you, 

I've never gotten used to speaking,

I've never been one who's come accustomed, 

In revealing how I'm feeling!

So selfishly, I write these words to myself, 

To justify my twisted ways,

Towards YOU who gave me life, 

And with most adoring love, have blessed me all my days!

These Lyrics, The Poetic Interpretation Of My Soul!

I’m crossing the line,
One step at a time,
Making my progression with each and every rhyme!
I’m crossing the line,
Riding my chariot, 

 Out of the gates that keep me stuck in time!

I Can't Let You Fall!

I'm not sad initially,

But it makes me sad to see you suffer,

I just want to share your pain,

Just to make things better!

I'm in the dark, I wish I knew,

How to spark a light for you,

Like a Lone Bird sitting on a wire,

To sit by you is my desire!

I've got a smile that I could spare,

Spare this smile N' take you there,

Higher than that lonesome wire,

High above the clouds to a sky on fire!

You try so hard to keep that frown,

Along with you, you bring me down,

Grasp your hand & I'll swim harder,

For a friend I love, I'd gladly be a martyr!

I'd die for you if it meant you'd live,

Gladly my life I would give,

Turn to dust you start to scatter,

I'll take your ashes & place it on a platter!

I care too much to let you fall,

I'll fix you up bones & all,

Doesn't matter how long it takes,

When you don't smile my heart breaks!

This chill I feel has got me cold,

Love your smile more than solid gold,

Melt this frost please off of my head,

Don't be sad please smile instead!

Fake it if you must, fake it if you will,

When I smile for you it's always real!

So, I've got a smile that I could spare,

Spare a smile that could take you there,

Higher than your lonesome state,

Take your time baby, I can wait!

When Love Be In Motion!

Copyright ©2010 Jimmy Bairagee

Caution, When Love Be In Motion!
Control All Emotions For A Clearer Vision!
Too Often Love Is Mistaken When In Actuality It Is Infatuation!
Crucial, Emotions Be Checked From All Direction!

Hilarity Behind The Irony!

Copyright ©2010 Jimmy Bairagee

Meltdown,

A Catastrophic Mental Breakdown!

Origin Unknown,

Suppose It's Just What Life Has Thrown!